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After much dithering back and forth, I decided to drop my public speaking course and take an art history course.


- I want to tutor, and public speaking was on Mondays and everything else was on Tuesday/Thursday. It cut into my tutoring time.
- I know public speaking will be offered this summer, whereas I'm not sure art history will. I need both for my degree.
- I'm putting off public speaking.
- I like having long days, and not spreading everything out over several days. So, this gives me a long day Tuesday/Thursday.

My Tuesday/Thursday is going to be long, class starts at 830, and then I have class pretty much until 2pm. Which isn't too bad, that's three classes. My fourth, as always, is online.

So, my schedule now looks like this:

8.30-9.45 Art History
10.00-11.15 American history
12.00-1.50 Stats

Lit is online.


Nov. 3rd, 2015 06:09 pm
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I need a big to do list, because I have a lot of things to do. And not a lot of time to do it in. So that's what this is:


- Dishes
- Living room

- laundry


- Meeting at M.U.M.
- Banks
- School
- Paper about job shadow
- NaNo
- Dinner

- Dishes
- History PowerPoint slides


- Dinner
- Dishes
- School
- NaNo
- Biology
- Math


- Dinner
- Dishes
- Math
- Biology

Now, if I can get all this done, I'll be impressed with myself. Root me on?
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So, they've given me a second chance to get the house into order.

I've cleaned more in the last week, than I ever have. Tonight, after the kids get home from school, we'll get the upstairs done, since that really should not take long.

I'm hoping that tomorrow, I can wipe down a few things and be ready for the inspection at 330-400. Sam is coming up to help too, which is a big help. I have a few things to wipe down. Mainly the wall by the stair case, and the light switches. Those need to be clean too, unfortunately.

I'm not doing well, mentally. It doesn't help that I have to take off from school tomorrow, to deal with this. But I'm not doing well, anyway.

I'm also exhausted. Physically, mentally... just exhausted.

I did get a job, though. It's tutoring, online and face to face. It pays pretty well, if I can get some tutorees, again. So. We'll see. I'm hoping this works out better than the stuff at school did.

I have homework to do. And I just can't focus on it. So, I'm going to try to do that.
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So today, two things happened.

1) Housing inspected, and we failed. Apparently, my house is filthy. Even though I tried my hardest to clean. But my stove/oven are filthy. There's rotten food in my fridge. My bathroom is rancid. Pictures beneath the cut )

So, basically, I don't know what's going to happen now. We could be evicted. We can't afford to live anywhere else. Literally, this is all I can afford to live at and we barely make it here.

2. Children Services was also here today. they claim that unless Daughter gets some mental help, she may be removed to foster care. That means, I could lose my house and my child.

Oh, and to top it all off, my cat got out this morning and I haven't been able to find him to bring him home/inside again. So, I haven't even been able to cuddle something today.

And now I'm in tears again.

I've done nothing but cry most of the day. Even before they inspected/child services stopped by.

I don't know what we're going to do. I can't afford to live anywhere but in housing. So, today has just been bad.
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Today, I lost my final tutoree. They just never showed up for tutoring, and I'm just... done with the pain in the ass. Although this week and next are midterms. So; we'll see what happens.

Speaking of midterms. I have a four essay question Lit Midterm that is going to make me pull my hair out. I answered one question today. I also did almost all my biology. I have a midterm for history next week.


I'm exhausted. I'm trying to keep it together, but that's not happening, really. I'm still considering applying at Dollar General because I can walk that after dark without too much trouble. But Daughter would have to watch Son a lot.

I also have another paper to do that I can't do until after Wednesday.

Basically, I'm flailing and sinking and there's no one picking up the slack.
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No, not my paltry paycheck, though that's coming too. I'm talking about my financial aid check.

That means, it's time to sort out what goes where in terms of money:

stuff )

that's about it, really. I need a car, but that has to wait until Spring, when I get that check. Then, I'll get a car and never have any money. I wish I was kidding. I'm not, not really.

If I can save that $1k, and then like $10-15 per month from my check? I'm ahead of the game. It helps that that's about what I'll get from my job right now. I'm thinking about not being a tutor next semester and just letting that go. I mean, the paltry sum is nice, but it's paltry, and it's just not worth the hassle and stuff. I understand why people don't do it for more than one semester.

And next semester, I'll be even more confined on my time, having classes four days a week. (Monday through Thursday)

I'm just not impressed today. I want to curl up in bed, and there's too much to do.
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So, today, next semester's classes dropped so that we could look at them. I, being the obsessive that I am, looked, and spoke with an adviser. So, next semester looks like this:

Communications 110: Public Speaking*: M/W 11.30-12.45
History 111: American History to 1877: T/R 10-11.15
Math 131: Statistics 1: T/R 12-1.50
Literature 210: The Short Story: Online

*The public speaking is required to graduate. In fact, I don't think they offer a major where it isn't required. Otherwise, I would not be taking it. Ever. I have been putting it off, but because of the way my schedule looks next semester, it's about the only thing that will fit. Because I don't want my daughter having to watch her brother again. And the way the classes are now? He'll be home alone for maybe 15 minutes before I get home.

Also, he advised me to put in my petition to graduate in January. Because I'm that close to being able to. I can't tell if the panic attack is for graduating, or the thought of standing in front of people and talking.

I plan on tutoring next semester too. It's not a lot of money - especially when people don't show up - but it is something, and that's better than nothing. (I mean, my first paycheck was $21. Not a lot at all.)

Now, back to my paper writing. Because those need done.
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So, it's my second week tutoring, and I'm hoping to get a few more tutorees, but it doesn't look like I'm going to, so I'm stuck.

But, tomorrow's another day and I could get another tutoree. We'll see.

I'm also trying to keep up my grades and make sure that they are where I need them to be. Today, I almost freaked out, but it was okay in the end, so I'm just going to leave it at that. I had two tutorees today. Both in the same math, going over the same things. It was a pretty easy day for me. Tomorrow, I work on history, Lit and Biology, because I don't think my tutoree is going to show up. The time just doesn't work for her.

Which I do understand. It sucks for me, because I need the money, but sometimes, things just don't work out.

Anyway, I have four tutorees that are showing up and doing the right thing getting help. I need more though. I'm hoping that as the semester progresses some will realize they need help and come to mesign up for peer tutoring.

I've also done my first informational interview. I loved it. The professor was nice and engaging and just really funny.

Tonight is HOCKEY. I missed hockey.

I'm going to be working on hockey and knitting tonight.

Tomorrow, however, there is a list:

- living room
- dining room
- dishes
- dinner
- fold laundry

I'm going to be exhausted by the time I get to school, but I need to work on the house a lot and haven't been doing that. I get to school at 7am in the morning and generally don't leave until 1.30, depending on the day.

Tomorrow, I'll get there about 8am and not leave until 4.30pm. That's a full day, especially with all the fatigue I have going on. (That's another rant all by itself.)

So, if you want to know what blackhole has eaten me: It's schoolwork, just like normal. Schoolwork and working. Which is still weird to say.
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I thought I wanted to teach high school. I thought I wanted to mold young minds.

... I'm beginning to think I don't. After doing two informational interviews with college professors, and thinking about doing a third, I'm beginning to wonder if teaching high school is really what I want to do.

I want to teach. That much I do know. I just don't know who I want to teach. I want to teach English, but I want to teach literature. I want to listen as people tear stories apart and find the little tidbits that make talking about them interesting.

I don't want to teach English mechanics. Which is something I'll have to teach at the high school level.

I don't want to worry about verb tenses or about how to diagram a sentence. I want to read about analyses of texts and to find out if someone has a different view than I do of the literature that we have to read.

I'm talking myself out of teaching high school aren't I?

I just... I'm not good at workplace politics. And a lot of college work, a lot of work period means politics. I'm not good at it. I freeze up or get too loud, or say the wrong thing at the wrong time, and it all comes back to my social phobia and being terrified of people.

I don't know what to do. But I need to decide soon. Because the time is coming that I need to decide on my classes again. And that means deciding: high school or college?
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Since I start tutoring tomorrow, I need to try to get back on a schedule:

Under here )

Now, this Thursday actually looks like this:

This Thursday )

All of my doctor appointments now have to be Thursday mornings. That's awesome. (Sarcasm.) But I'll figure it out. Hopefully, I get more tutoring assignments. That will help bring me to more money. Wednesday I have an appointment with another English teacher. I need to do an informational interview with him, so that's a thing that's happening.

Hopefully, I can stay awake. I'm going to need soda and coffee to keep me going, seriously. Maybe I'll make myself a mug of coffee in the morning and just take it with me. I don't have any creamer though. :( I need to run to the store and get some. But I just don't have time. I'm never going to get homework done.

I'm hoping this schedule works for me. If not, back to the drawing board.
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1) The dentist said my mouth sore is nothing serious. I bit the inside of my cheek and keep irritating it with my teeth, so... yeah. Nothing serious.

2) I've cleaned my downstairs, and need to do the upstairs, but that's tomorrow. I'm going to be working on my miniessay after dinner.

3) I'm both excited and nervous for my tutorees. I start tutoring on Monday at 10am. Hopefully, I'm a good help to the people who are stuck with me.

4) Tuesday is going to be a long day. I have a tutoree at 8am, but don't start class until 2pm. So I'm going to be hauling books with me and doing homework while I can.

5) I have some extra credit math stuff to do, but I need to start the rice for dinner.

6) I'm doing okay this semester. I just need to be careful about my timing on everything.


Sep. 10th, 2015 07:19 pm
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1) My schedules are tossed out the window. My Lit course requires a miniessay every week on Tuesday by 10am. So, I spend Mondays working on that miniessay.

2) Four tutoring people! That's only four hours a week, but... that means I'll clear $20-25/week. That's not a lot, but it's better than nothing.

3) There's something wrong with my mouth. There's a sore on the inside of my right cheek, but it's swollen and I've had it for a week now, and it hurts. So; I made an appointment with the dentist for tomorrow morning. My mouth really hurts.

4) The kids are in school, and it's working out with Son and Daughter on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Daughter is watching Son those days for two hours, while I'm in class.

5) My house is suffering again. Sigh.

6) My mouth hurts. :(

7) I have papers to do. And I'm not doing them right now. I'm too tired tonight.

8) I aced my math test!
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Mostly, I write here about how things are going badly. So, today, I'm going to write about how things went better. They're still not great - I have a Fibromyalgia flare happening, which means sharper pain than normal, and my stomach going wonky in all sorts of TMI ways - but they're better.

- I had Subway today! This brought about the stomach upset, but it was worth it, because OMNOMNOM Subway.
- I got my Lit journal done! It didn't take nearly as long as I thought it would, but it did take a couple of hours of intense reading and writing. Now, to see if I did it right, but I won't know until grades are posted.
- I got laundry done. This means that it isn't festering somewhere.

Also, today I met a guy. Now, normally, this isn't cause for celebration, but today? It is. Several things about him:

- He has a job.
- He's going to school full time.
- He bought me soda today.

He's in my Shakespeare class. We met out front waiting for the front door to the school to open. He was just as worried about getting it done as I was. It was nice to have someone to work with. He rode with me to Subway, but then had to go get ready for work (at McD's, but a job's a job, ya know?). He was really nice. It was nice to have that attention for a little while. I doubt it'll go much beyond Shakespeare, but whatever. I'll take what I can get.

So, things are getting better. My brain is not trying to eat me, which considering I haven't slept for over 24 hours, is something else altogether.

Oh yeah, last night, I didn't sleep. I kept trying, but every little thing woke me back up. I finally gave up at 430 and just stayed up all night. I dozed a bit here and there, but that's about it. I'm going to take extra night night drugs tonight, see if that helps. I have math tomorrow afternoon and that means needing to actually, ya know, sleep. I can't afford to mess up this math class. I really can't. So sleep tonight.

So, that's a better update than yesterday now isn't it?
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Meaning, a new semester. I have three online classes and a face-to-face class (Algebra for Stats). But with three online classes, I need the discipline back. Meaning, back to schedules, and working on homework.

Schedules )
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So, in addition to 14 credit hours this semester, I'm going to be working part time for my co-op at the school. Plus, I'm going to be tutoring AFM 090-095 (they're lower Maths than what I'm in).

Excuse me, but how the hell am I supposed to do this?

I'm not sure what the hell is going on, but all this got dumped on me today when I finally got my phone back. Yeah, my phone got broken and then quit working. I've been without a phone for a week.

I'm just sorta in shock that I'm going to be working this semester in addition to going to school full time. I'm still processing, but we'll see what happens. I'm sure that the house is going to suffer again like it did this summer, but we'll have to see.
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Today, I have two presentations:

First one is in FYE. I have a powerpoint, and a shawl to present. Then, except for one class, I'm done with this class for the semester. I don't even have to take my book bag with me. Except I will because I have books to sell back.

Second one is in English. It's our Hamlet presentation. I handled this on my own, for the most part, but my partner helped fill out the important bits, so I can't complain too much. Today is my last English class for the semester.

I'm almost done. There's a light at the end of the tunnel. I'm just ready to settle down and just knit for a while. I'm almost done with this shawl and want to finish it.

I'm ready for this semester to be over.
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900-930 Will, probate stuff
930-1000 kitchen
1000-1030 knitting
1030-1100 will probate stuff
1100-1130 dining room
1130-1200 knitting
1200-1230 lunch
1230-100 will probate stuff
100-130 kitchen
130-200 knitting
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540-630 Internet
630-700 Probate law (will)
700-730 Get ready to go
730-900 Kroger
900-930 Drama Essay
930-1000 Probate law
1000-1030 Knitting
1030-1100 Probate law
1100-1130 law presentation
1130-1200 Drama Essay
1200-1230 Probate law
1230-100 Law presentation
100-130 Drama Essay
130-200 Probate law
200-230 Knitting
230-300 Law presentation
300-330 Drama essay
330-400 Probate law
400-430 Law presentation
430-500 Dinner prep
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540-630 Internet, tags?
630-700 Will, probate stuff
700-730 Law presentation
730-800 Hamlet
800-830 Get ready
830-900 Ride to bank
900-930 pay rent/walk to school
930-1000 read Hamlet
1000-1115 FYE
1130-1245 English
1245-420 English group project
420-500 ride home


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